I do not know who I am.
It sounds crazy, right? To not know who you are. Who am I? No, really, who am I?
Call me Layer. If that doesn't roll of your tongue well, you can call me Newbie. They are not my true names, yes, but does it matter? Nothing matters.
And, sure, you could argue that everyone has a personality and that I'm just making this all up for pity on the internet, but here's a thought. If I do not have a personality that I or people around me can recognise, am I truly human? Or am I just a mistake, an anomaly?
The latter could be more accurate.
Nevertheless - life has no meaning, I don't have a purpose on this God-forsaken planet; we all live in a simulation, and we're all programmed to go to school, work for the majority of our lives, and die. After death, will it really matter what you've accomplished in life? Everyone just forgets that you've existed if you're not a public figure, so why even bother?
Without a real purpose on this planet, I don't see a point in going on - not as in, "I want to die because I have nothing to live for," but rather, "I simply do not wish to exist if all I do is the same thing every day."
For now, I'll tell you what I know.
I am an adolescent from Europe, leaning more toward Central-Eastern Europe, geographically speaking. I have an interest in coding and computers. It's kind of interesting how I have complete control over how you see me. I can tell you as much or as little about myself as I want, and you will still not know the real "me". If you really think about it, it's almost godlike in a way. There are things you don't know about me, and will never know about me, and that's a good thing. There are some things about me that you don't need to know.
I am in no way a nice person, no matter how much I come off as one. Kindness is a lie. All kindness in the world is fabricated. We, as what we know as "humans", are all selfish creatures and we only think of ourselves. We have no regard for others, they are all just there to add spice to our simulation. NPCs, if you will. No matter how much you say you care for others more than yourself, no matter how many times you try to convince yourself that you're a good person, you are not. Think about it. How many times have you wanted to say something along the lines of, "this shirt looks horrible on you", or, "you look hideous" to someone else? Surely, you didn't do that because you didn't want to hurt their feelings. Now, think about how honest you are. How honest are you? If you've never told someone that they look bad in certain pieces of clothing, or that they simply look bad, then are you really as honest as you think you are? See, if you can't be honest with someone because it might hurt their feelings, but then you're expected to be honest and not lie to others, that's just stupid. You are a bad person for lying to others, and this includes being kind.
I recognise that you may not like me. I do not care. I'm allowed to express myself on my domain, and I'm not here to cater to you or what you want to see. Besides, what you think of me or my site is none of my business. Frankly, I do not expect you to like anything I put on my site.
